Sunday, August 14, 2011

Wedding Love Day

Oh boy! I just got married.
My new name is Savannah Lin Van Alstyne.
My new husband is my lover,  Jacob.

Our wedding was beyond perfect.
I'm so glad we decided to go through with a beautiful ceremony,
as we are both somewhat the type to elope. :)

I'll share a few pictures, so you can understand the perfection

i hope you enjoy them as much as i

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

holy smokin' cow

my last post was about the engagement! nerdy nerdy me.
i'm terrible at blogging - therefore we have much catching up to do.
i have much catching up to do.

most important:
i'm in line to marry the man of my dreams (as long as i don't piss him off too bad within 2 months)
that man i mentioned, he and i have been having the most lovely days recently.
we skate around downtown. get coffee. get beer. get airhead extremes. get whatever we want.
it's been so fun. those are my happiest of happy days.
i love my jacob, and we also get to go to NY again soon. To play with his family up in the hamptons.
oooh la la. we are both excited.

Also we bought a puppy - turns out its been quite the experience. He's actually a FABULOUS boy. Its more just the --getting up in the middle of the night to let him pee-- type things that make it a little hard. If you ask me? We have two perfect pups.

Life is good for now.
Hope yours is too.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

new york/engagement

New York with Jacob was actually a March travel as well.
But it was so awesomely cool, I felt it deserved its own post. EXCITE!

ah... Jakey proposed in central park!

It was basically way romantic and cute. :)
Now I'm engaged to be wed.
We both basically feel we've been married a while anyhow.
But, we're both excited to tie the knot.
Jacobs been my man now for over 2 years.
My man, my lover, my protector & my best friend.
I sure do love that boy.

And now some New York lovin pictures:

engaged <3

We have an amazingly lovely time, to put it lightly.

recent travels

I'm terrible at keeping my blog up to date.
It's ok. I'm forgiven.

In march, I had quite the lucky-travel month.
I got to return to london, UK (my #1 favorite place on this planet)
and I also spent a small amount of time in dublin.

My long, lost pen pal (Alice) was kind enough to let me stay with her in England.
She lives in a lovely little town by the name of Brighton.
Its a bit south of London, and seaside. My god, the place was beautiful.
I am indebted to her for life.
There is absolutely no better way to immerse yourself in the lovely English culture,
than to live a week with some amazing, welcoming Brits.

Alice and her roommates were way more kind than I could have ever asked for.
She lives in her lovely flat with her man, Dave & another couple named Beth & Jamie.
They were all ridiculously fun people, we had a blast while they showed me their side of Brighton.

I stayed with them for about 7 days. They didn't miss one morning of waking me up with the smell of coffee & eggs on toast. Coolest folks EVER.

I'll just share a few photos:

alice and i

alice & david

jamie, beth & i

After 7 days of that, i moved onto Dublin, Ireland. 
I only spent two days in Dublin, and my transportation was reduced to my longboard.
So, I skated in a corner of Dublin for two days. It was beautiful and green.
Someday I would like to visit northern Ireland, I was convinced by the Irish.

I have a few pictures from there too:

a lovely tea shop

i stayed on jean-pierre's couch. he was cool.

That is an awful quick summary of my March travels.
I'm sure if you're reading this, I've told you much about it anyway.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

My Bible

If you know me but at all, you know I have a deep obsession with the poem "Desiderata."
I haven't posted anything too upbeat lately. Life has its ways of bringing you down.
I'm slowly learning that happiness is not something that's served to you on a plate, with a side of optimism.
Happiness is a choice. Happiness is something that you have to find within yourself.
Nothing has helped me realize this more than this poem.
It explains life's ups and downs better than I could ever do.
It makes you want to be a happy, brave person.
I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.


Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul. 

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

-Max Ehrmann

Friday, February 11, 2011

i've got no where else to go

"if i get it all down on paper
its no longer inside of me
threatening the life it belongs to"

is it wrong to despise living?
maybe its not the simple task of living, but more so of growing up.

john mayer is currently telling me the heart of life is good
i believe that, or at least i try.

sadness is something that is very difficult to push away
i have always seen myself as a happy, bubbly person. 

lately i can't stop thinking. thinking thinking thinking.
you could call it the "greener grass syndrome."

what if the choices i made weren't the choices i wanted to make
i do my best to not think about the past
but, for me its become impossible

was i happier in st george?
living with my two best of friends
however, all i thought was the urge i had to escape

i ran away to portland
began a brand new life
i wiped my slate clean and skated my life away
i loved portland, but i loved my best friend [at the time] more.
she needed to move to bend for safety issues 
i moved to bend with her

i did not like living in bend - per say
but, i had an amazing job that allowed me to travel to places
i would never have been able to see
i adored that

my parents were kind enough to spot me the cash
to get through my time in bend and make it back to salt lake

i've been in salt lake for about three years now (i think)
and its not my home
i'm trapped in my own state
i'm trapped in my own state of mind

circles circles circles

i'm back to thinking about nothing other than escape
i want to run away
i want to run away so bad
i want to run run run and never stop running
i don't want to know where i'll end up
i don't care

please, take me away

Wednesday, February 9, 2011


"And we laugh like soft, mad children, 
smug in the wooly cotton brains of infancy
the music and voices are all around us."

i wake up
i tie my shoes
the day is no one's but mine

(tomorrow i slave away)

a contradiction?
i lie, telling myself:
"there. is. no. other. way."

where to go from here?
is this what i will be? 
my roots surely don't grow weaker in time

do i want this?
do i want you?
do you want me?
i'm broken, you know
im breaking you

i'm broken but healing

i'm sick of feeling pain associated to absolutely nothing
i'm tired of being trapped in every possible way
tell me i'm not trapped
i'm never trapped

i make my own choices
i wouldn't take a single one back

the colors make me feel at home
the colors keep me sane
the pills help, i've been told
though i prefer to imagine its the colors & freedom

they say i can choose happiness.

[easier said than done]

 what is happiness?

comfort? maybe
love? possible
money? it helps
freedom? yes.

a bit of all of the above, i'm sure

i need change
change makes me feel new
new and clean
less broken
change is happiness

i'll move here and there
with or without you and yours

some are easier days to bare than others
in retrospect however
there is no day much different than the one before

a zombie
with uncontrollable thoughts

...who knows...